Schizophrenia

Will be back, away for a long long time.
Goodbye.

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7:29 PM

All the same.
I should have shut up.

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8:46 PM

Get Lost.

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8:51 PM

Beads

My new alarm clock.

Wanted to buy a ring yesterday but no ATM, shall buy it next time although its quite disappointing. Btw, found a boomz job but she didn't pick up my call, well try my luck in the morning again.

& My sister decided to give away one of her hamster to Ivy, at least she'll take good care of it. Hahaha. Hm, I shall try something different to my blog.

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Alright whatever, I got nothing better to do.

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1:14 AM

Another 4 more days for Hospitality. Our trainer(James Dylan) made our trip enjoyable although the weather was quite humid. Haha.

Out tomorrow with Ivy. Hope backbone won't pain again.

To self; I only know how to think about what I want my parents to fulfill and why they can't do so. I never put myself in their shoes. Finally I realized that what they wanted me to fulfill, I did not not do so too. I'll get furious when they can't, so do they. I think it's time for me to learn how to endure, let go and contribute. & Think about what they're good at than what they're bad at, simple is nice.

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10:20 PM

No more N level, no more papers, no more books! Hahahahaha.
Last paper, D&t. wasted too much time on doing the drilling jig question. Pens down and I'm still writing. Hmm, nevermind it's over.
Finally can go out tomorrow without worrying about studies. Haha. Walk all day long.
By the way, I can't find the background image I want. So just use this as a temporary one.
Ps: Watched the graduation disc, some expression are hilarious. Haha.
Boomz.
"We can't add days to life but we can add life to days"

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7:36 PM

Away for one month or so.
No matter what is going to happen after this just smile.

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4:19 PM

Happy birthday Jasmine!
In advance;
Happy birthday Shi wei, tomorrow!
Happy birthday Sheila, 13 September!
Happy birthday Joycelyn, 23 September!
Happy birthday Chi Jie, 24 September!
Happy birthday Swee Ying, 28 September!
Happy birthday to those birthday in September. (:
Lazy to type, hahaha.
This is the really the last post until the last paper of N level. Hahaha.
All the best everyone to your NO Level. Shall stop here. Tag me or contact me through other websites. Farewell.

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3:45 PM

All the best for your N, everyone. Mt today, SS tomorrow, English the day after.
One more month to go in order to have my blogging mood back.
Going to study for my SS now, see ya~

Don't give me your f attitude.

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3:41 PM

Out with different people, watching different movie, different timing but same place.

Charlotte & Dinesh(Their birthday).

Charlotte & me

Nat

Ivy look fierce~

Andrea, Sylvia, Yuxiu & Ivy.

S & A dreaming of going in Cartier or looking at shuai ge?
From that day onwards my mind is full of thoughts till now, when will it gone?

Out with Andrea, Ivy and Sylvia.(My new relatives) Hahaha.

Walk all over Orchard, from one shopping center to another. When we were out of Orchard plaza an adult told as that Michael Jackson is in orchard central. At first we thought he is insane but we found out that its true. Of course not the real Michael Jackson, its all the different kinds of 'Michael Jackson'. From kids to adult, male to female.

I realised that I can forgive but for some things I can't forget.

We bought nothing only eat and drink but we're so craving for chairs(in order to store their energy). Hahahahaha. We went Ion Orchard again and again. We even went to explore the Orchard parade hotel toilet, the service is good. Too much to elaborate so shall stop here.

Need to study again tomorrow.

I choose to forget I know its impossible, I'll let go.

Great and tired end with a smile.(:

But I'll never forget my friends, be it good or bad.

Happy birthday Michael Jackson.

Won't be back so soon after this post.

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2:04 AM

Doggy, you're gone. sad.

I'm back again but it wont be a long post, don't really feel like blogging.
Ahhhh, I'm so going to get my phone fix but I got poor time management. Whatever, I'm going to fight against time now and deal with my two weakest subjects. No motivation is my motivation, I'm going to find my motivation.

It's just as I thought it would be, will it repeat again?
Won't be back again for long?

sick and tired of wearing all those plastic smiles and masks, I have no choice. Its the only way to cover things up. Aha. I know one day I'll break down, I wont let it happen.

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6:36 PM

Qing, alone, not the same.
'Enjoy this year'.
Will be back soon. (:
I'm so dumb and whatever you want to say. Ya I'm envy of everything, everyone, but I can't help, too. I can't stay calm. I know I can but now I can't. For me it takes years. Ya its me who can control. I can but, just SHUT THE FUCK UP, stupid brain. I don't need you to remind me of anything. Enough ENOUGH! It seems easy but its hard for me. Things is not the way you think it is. I know it was easy but.. you just won't understand how hard it was. I used to be positive.. soon I'll be again. AHHHHHHHHHH. SHUT UP!! I know I'm the one who is giving myself stress, I know! But I can't help it, you won't understand, you're not me, stupid soul stop talking to my positive brain! Negative is so not me! GET LOST! AHHHHHHH! No words can express what I'm in now. Whatever! Please, I beg you. SHUT UP!

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5:57 PM

Weah's birthday.

Sentosa

Vivo

During Eugene's brithday

During Sec 2

Happy birthday Dad.

Happy belated lunar birthday mum.

Happy 44th birthday Singapore.

Enjoy your day and all the best for everything, everyone.

All the best for the exam, people.

Back after everything is over.

Labels: wishes again

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12:00 AM

Yuxiu&Yujing

I will not be using com from today onwards, will be back after all the papers! However, you can click the ads or tag me! All the best in everything people. (:

I can sense that something is changing and it's coming. I don't wish to destroy myself even more.
Farewell, my friends.

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5:46 PM

Happy belated birthday, Phoebe/Wanting!
Happy birthday, Liyana!
(:
Wont be blogging for awhile, only twitting for now. Don't go away and help me click my ads! (:
By the way, drink more water guys.

Labels: Only wishes

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8:39 PM

In the past

I can't find the photo of the four of us, still searching.

As for Dnt I'm turning insane soon. Suddenly the mahjong table is so difficult to rotate and the acrylic at the top make it even more harder. Bloody, I thought it's almost done so I can concentrate on my design journal. Forget it.

Had a screaming, shouting and fighting lesson during PE. Won't elaborate but it's so damn fun! Ha ha ha! By the way, I'll stop blogging for awhile again but will return soon.

Shall end here, goodbye.

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7:30 PM

I'm back but not for long!
Went Dnt after school and my mahjong dining table is almost done! Wanna play mahjong on it?
Huh huh? Nah, its way too small. Haha. I shall post some overdue photos. Will continue posting the rest in the next post or so.
Ps, some quite blur due to my hp.

Serah

Pei Qing

Joanne

Xinxian

Wanyi

YingJie, Yitong, Sylvia

Jackson, Josie, Ivy, Rachel, Yuxiu

Last Year

Lastly

Happy Belated birthday, mummy ILoveYou!

Okay, the rest of the post will be in point form. So you might not understand, its nothing important too. Its very very random, don't ask me why cause I don't know either. (:

I need to study, I need to study!
Control and think.
Fuckyou, STFU.
What you want? Can you please tell mee?
Its spinning like mad. haha.
Michael Jackson, CPL&LKH are loved.
End here, goodbye.

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11:57 PM

Hey, readers!
I'll stop blogging for a period of time, will be back soooooon, I think.
Will reply tags and upload photos when I'm back to post.

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3:58 PM

- The photos that we took yesterday. Some is from the tutor while some is from the others. I'll Post some of the photos first. The rest I'll post it next time. (:

-Ps, some very blur.

Chamber of music

Clarinet section, but not full. (:

After changing.(Quite blur)

Stink,Tissue,Fresh.

with tutor. (:

Percussion, not full too. (:

Upload more next time. (: By the way, there's no tsunami.

Belated stuff
Give your dad a hug today,
Happy Father's Day.
Daddy I miss you loadsss.
Imagine you were there ytd, how dumb. It take years. The last song reminded me of you. Don't try to look ah, Ivy leeeeeee.

Labels: Chamber of photos

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8:16 PM

Tagged by Yingjie & Andrea!

All of the 14 people must do this quiz,
unless he/she doesn't have a blog.
Write the name of 14 people you can think off your head
Then answer the question.(Not in order)

1. Ivy
2. Jasmine
3. Sheila
4. Josie
5. Dinesh
6. Rachel
7. Hongyi
8. Elvis
9. Eugene chua
10. Charlotte
11. Nanette
12. GQ
13. Yujing
14. Melvin

1.How did you get to meet 7?
Same Primary school.

2. What would you do if you & 13 never met?
I'll need to find a new sister.

3. What would you do if 1 & 12 date?
Hahaha, do nothing.

4. Have you ever seen 14 cry?
I can't remember, maybe?

5. Would 4 & 11 be a good couple?
Haha, but both are girls.

6. Do you think 11 is attractive?
Yeah.

7.What's 2's favourite colour?
Pink! (:

8. When was the last time you talked to 9?
Today.

9. What language does 8 speak?
Chinese & English.

10. Who is 13 going out with?
Boyfriend.

11.What grade is 12 in?
Secondary 4.

12. Would you ever date with 10?
Haha, both are girls!

13.Where does 5 live?
Choa Chu Kang.

14. What's the best thing about 3?
She can cook! :D

15.What would you want to tell 10 now?
Hey whats up!

16. What the best thing about 8?
He's my ah pa.

17. Have you ever kissed 5?
No.

18. What was the best memory you have with 7?
Playing the childhood game in class.

19. When's the last time you're going to see 6?
I don't know but will keep in contact.

20. How is 14 & 12 different?
Different class.

21.Is 6 pretty?
Yeah.

22. What was the first impression of 11?
Friendly.

23.How did you meet 5?
In class during sec 1.

24. Is 1 your best friend ?
No, I hate her a lot man! Hahaha.

25.Do you hate 12?
No.

26. Have you seen 4 on the last month?
Yeah.

27.When was the last time you said to 3?
School Funfair, I think.

28. Have you been to 5's house?
No.

29.When's the next time your gonna see 10?
Tomorrow.

30. Are you close to 13?
Ya, or else she won't be my sister. (:

31. Have you been to a movie with 4 before?
Yeah.

32.Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8?
No.

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7:30 PM

I used to be so so so carefree. I used to have whatever I wanted.(When I was young) Whatever, let nature takes its course. Things will be fine after all, don't they. I'm used to it anyway but its just too stress to handle. Plus D&T is almost every week. Faint, Lack of time management too. Turning insane sooner or later. Never mind, I'll find a way to cure it. Stress rocks. By the way, I'm not really good with my words, it's usually not what I meant.
(Random) HELLO IVY LEE! hahaha!
Father's day is on the same date as the concert. (: I know you will be there. Somewhere.

Labels: Schizophrenia

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6:34 PM

DAMN! you, fk.
Fuck off and shut the shell up.

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8:29 PM

I respect you but did you? So I treated you like how you used to. I know I did nothing to make you satisfied. I understand that you can do better but do you know every one's good at different things. Did you ever look into those things that I had done, instead of judging me about what I have not. Whenever I did something, you'll always make me feel that I have done nothing. Did you ever get the fact right before jumping into any conclusion? Just that what you heard or see is not the full story of everything and it'll cause misunderstanding. I know whatever I say is an excuse but it hurts you know. What done is done. Okay, whatever, you make me stronger.
If you'll break don't promise, the house is empty again. (:
Hahaha, my blog is boring and lame.
Should I feel happy or sad?
COULD YOU STOP BEING PATHETIC! _l_ Fy.

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6:38 PM

A verrrrrrrry short post.
Spent our day at Discovery center today. As for tomorrow Class outing at East Coast.

You need not remind me anything, you just don't understand. Instead of explaining I'll just smile, no point. Soon, I'll love being a fool and the bad one instead. Say whatever you want, I won't give a damn. You cause me to this don't ever blame me.
I love my life even more.
(:

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5:45 PM

My mouse is fine again! Computer without mouse is so irritating.

Roam around Ikea with Ivy, Rachel and Ryan on Saturday after their audition.
Here are some of the random photos. Haha.

Rachel, me and Ivy.

Dont look at me.

Look at her!

Boo!

Cip at East Coast, filming in class and had a terrible stomach upset today.
Mind me if my mood/attitude changes this few days, I can't control.
I will just shut up. (:

Quiz: (tagged by Sylvia (: )
1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
No favourite spot.

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
Sleepy.

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
My classmates.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
No.

5. Would you ever donate blood?donate ??
Yes.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was the opposite sex?
Ya.

7. Do you want someone dead?
Depends.

8. What does your last message says?
Where you?

9. What are you thinking right now?
Thinking of how to answer this question.

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
No.

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
Around 1?

12. Where did you buy the T-shirt you are wearing now?
I.P zone?

13. Is someone on your mind?
no, yes? i don't know.

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
My sister.

15. Tag 10 random people to do this survey.

1. Ivy
2. Jasmine
3. Rachel
4. Dinesh
5. Shelia
6. Melvin
7. GQ
8. Josie
9. EugeneChua
10. Elvis

16. Who is no. 2 having relationship with?
Me. Lol, kidding! No one.

17. Is no. 3 a male or female?
Female.

18. If no. 7 & no. 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
Yes?

19. What is no. 1 studying about?
About what is in the textbook.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
Today and last week.

21. Is no. 4 single?
Yup.

22. Say something about no. 3.
Funny, smart, friendly and many more.

23. What do you think about no. 3 & no. 5 being together?
What do you think?

24. Descibe no. 9.
Bhb, hahaha! kidding. Friendly, joker and many more.

25. What will you do if no. 6 & no. 7 fight?
Ask them to continue. :D

26. Do you like no. 8?
Yes, she's my friend! (:

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8:50 PM

You just won't be satisfied.
When you can't get to eat a certain type of food, you wish for a table spoon of it. When you get to eat a table spoon of it, you wish for more. When you get to eat it all by yourself, you want something more than the food.
Why can't you learn to be satisfied and be contented for what you already have?
Sometimes a little bit of this and a little bit of that is enough.
You don't need everything. You're actually very fortunate.

Hope I'll score well for the last paper tomorrow.
Hehehahaho.

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3:16 PM

Random people doing random stuff.

Fish.

Lethargic dreams

Masks

Illusion
.

They are not moving.

The wonderful Smile

Shout!

Another 4 more papers to go, it's quicker than I thought.
Things are so weird nowadays.
Whatever, just let nature take its course. (:

Labels: nothing better to do

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4:49 PM

Math and Chemistry, tomorrow.
Math and Physics, the day after.
Saturday and Sunday study for Geo and D&t.

I'm way too far behind time.
I'm just wasting my own precious time and unable to study well at home. I need tuition after Mid Year!
OhMyTime!

Lesson is tomorrow & Subway is the day after tomorrow. (:

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2:34 PM

I hate night mares, it sucks.
More worst each time.

Had Flag day at City hall. We're very demoralized at first, no one willing to show some kindness.
They just turn and walk away, so saddening. But after that more and more people willing to donate. It's the heart that count, not money.

I'm just too tired of catching up.
When ever I think I'm near, things will soon make me further and further. .
And soon I must catch up with it again and again. .
I'm so damn lethargic, it's not me anymore.
I just LOVE to make a fool out of myself.
I just DON'T give it a damn.

Hahaha. (:

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8:55 PM

No time to waste!
Need to mug hard!
MYE is just two days away!
Fish!

Labels: No fullstop

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8:54 PM